retreat..?

It was not the best day in my life.
The pressure, and the chronicles of bad situation keep happening to me.

Not to mention the hectic-ness and the severe acute-kind of problems in works.
It was rainy after all.
Stand up, find the harmony, but you are facing down the great wall of China.

Be strong, be courageous , but you are facing the whole world stood up against you.
Get out and all of the universe pointing at you as a coward.
You are in the position of no one can help you.

your hands are shaking cold.
your head banging with the melody of big-bang.

And you realized... maybe this is the limit.
should I quit?
should I leave this situation?
Should I be a coward?

Nothings wrong being a coward.
Coward is an art.
an escapee.
But the escapee never becoming strong.

I just hope that
someday
an angel can come to me.

an angel doesn't always to have a wing.
doesn;t has to be in magnificent form.

what makes an angel is,
when she can help you when you were down.

help me, so that I won;t be an escapee.

One word- Responded

most of my friends preferred to reply the previous post by text messages.

This is the result :

Name ->Their Description about me

Eva -> Fun
Elisse -> meticulous!
Debbie ->Funny
Hanshin ->Insensitive
Ibeth-> Brilliant
Eche->Multitalented (smart)->she is the big fan of me hahaha..jk, che.
Olie-> Funny
Vicky ->Funny
Atan-> Captain
Carissa ->Old
Lenny ->Humble
Hansen-> Cheerful


So I am funny guy because you guys always making fun of me.
hahaha

Thank you guys
Your responds are greatly appreciated.



Best regards,
Kelvin

One word

anyone of you,
Please describe me in one word =)


Hope to hear from you soon.

Thank you .

God bless her.

auch.
I dropped my Ice cream,
you picked it up anyway.

damn!
I broke the lamp,
but you cleaned it up.

I forgot the textbook,
and you found it on time in giving it to me
while the distance is enough to make you exhausted.

My grade dropped like a stock in Dowjones,
and you cheer me up
Found me a hope
that gathered Just in time when I lost the hope.

The girls came in
The new player in my life
make it wonderful.
I began to share about her
talking about her all the time without paying attention to you.

The girl now is stepping out
breaking my heart
like a breeze smashing the rocks in the seashore.

Broken-hearted person. Feel alone and not realizing,
you were still there.

Now I have stepped out from the 15 year-old-bond named education
You were the first one to hug me,
But I rather throwing a party with my friend.

Now I am working.
getting arrogant.
Busy
and easily angry.

Not letting her entering the hectic-business-world.
without realizing, she is still making me a meals.
breakfast.

Now.
In the night
I heard her praying for me.

I can't hear properly and clearly.
But that moment
when she on her knee
in the middle of light-less room.
she ask God to bless me and protect me.

It is common for the believer family.
But for me...

That is the greatest moment I've ever seen in my life.
I can ask no more to God.
I can ask nothing less than a grateful.

I love you
Mom.

Harmony of Friends

The voices.

I like it.
When they called me. When they trusted me.

The voices seems blur now.

No,not so blur. I Can still hear them.

Now. no at all.

It begins with shimmering moment.
Fly in the rounded world filled with the harmony of friendship.
They trust you ,off course.

Searching some clue that had never been found before.
The clue seems surprisingly bored.
classic and old story.

They hold your hand in tight situation.
They lift you when bad things happened in chronicles.

They were still in the start point, ready to help you
Even you had loose the bond and called them naive.

Slowly but sure, you have understood.
The meaning of all this feelings, nothing more than a bonded friend.
we call it "friendship"

Now, let's face it.
The journey seems reaching the limit
the over limit.

Their sound now, is heartbreakingly beauttiful.
And beautifully sad.
We have to go now.
Try to fulfilled the meaning of "nothing-last-forever"
But we failed. We need each other.

You will miss somebody who called your name as a joke.
You will miss somebody hold your hand when you cried.
You will miss the melodic drama of conflict.
You will miss the moment, when you missed all of them.

Little bird flying in the air, searching for companion,
while little ants follow their lads in discipline manner.
Try to look over it.
It is nature.

We are something..
something that, I am sure, included in "last-forever" situation.

We are something that interrupting the whole fundamentals of nature,
and we are surely understand that nothing is last forever.
But let's make it the good ending. A happy ending


We are nothing less
and nothing more

than a Friend..

Straight..

Coated with love
Never listening to the universe, but drown in the breeze of hatred.

Imagine the worst scenario,
However, still joining the companies of Love.

Why bother to care?
The old music playing LOVE in major C.

But your major heart can win her feelings.
mindset always win.
Grab, So then your hand wont hanging in the misery of unpredictable scene.

Open your notes.
Stick to the sound of Upper room.
Keep your head up

Stand firmly..
Never look back.

Because you are
a man.

Guess who..

you are sitting at your desk .
seeing the wall. blank. and confused.

the desk lamp is not that shining.
heart beat is going wild.

pulsing your mind.
Your mind is stuck.

You are now in the middle of nowhere.
Standing alone in the middle of intersection.
An intersection of life.

actually, its natural .
natural to be frustrated. natural to be stuck-minded.

clap your hand.
Open up your mind-like what Jason said to me.

look at your side.
Someone is waiting.

waiting from the beginning of your frustrating day.
awaiting to be called.
and to be asked : Could you help me?

You had spent all of your day.
struggling with your own strength.
Dragging yourself out of problem-zone.

You think you are a Lion.
brave and strong.
Though, you are only human.
prone and fragile.

so ask other human.
Similarity means equality.
They are human after all.

Someone that is standing beside you all time is not a human.
well He was a human once.

you don't need to pay anything,
ask anything,
or beg for anything.

all you have to do, is just asking.
"Could you help me?"




Who is that Man?
Guess Who..

Day -doing

Waking.

Praying.

Starving.

Eating.

Showering.

Clearing.

Finishing.

Going.

Working.

Replying.

Sending.

Receiving.

Eating.

Meeting.

Homing.

Resting.

Chatting.

Praying.

Sleeping.

Dreaming.

braveman.

walking on the road..
listening to the old folks singing an old song.

drinking a cup of coffee.
watching the lady bringing the news
in the magic box full of color.

Looks prone, old and lame.

But in my point of view,
He is no less than the bravest warrior I've ever seen.

Midas King know how to turn piece of cake in to a piece of Benjamin.
But he don't know how to turn a sad feeling into a great feeling.

Now, who is the champ?
working eight to five. earn a bowl of rice.
exhausted. depressed. and frustrated.
He is not turning a cup of water into a shining gold.
He is not turning a piece of cake into a Benjamin sheet.

No, not at all.

But he is turning me into a better person.
He is turning me to be money maker.
a lover.

He is just struggling against the world, just to make me survive.
He is not the king of the world.
But he is willing to fight against the king of the world for my sake.

no, not the hero from an old books legends.
But he swore to beat any single hero that might hurt me.

He is not Jesus
nor His fellow's


He is just an ordinary man.
He is not anything.

He is my dad.

Balloons...

down to earth
still firmly grip the balloons

No I won't loose it
it is my fundamentals of dream.

Do you have the dream?

Actually, i trapped in the mist of doubtful mind.
I am not supposed to let go the balloons.

The balloons is still in my hand.
and I won't let it go.

Uplink always push me to be gave-up-er
not to be the winner.

Environment makes it simple and wrong.
upside down the facts
to let go the balloons.


Once my hand loose it,
I will be one of the hippies in the 80's

not having the fundamentals
no, they do have the fundamentals

their fundamentals is to always change your fundamentals

do not misjudge this words.
do not loose the balloons

Because
the balloons
is


Faith.

Queen of Empathy

Cheerful

An Idea getter
and the lady of mood-maker.

multi-tasking person,
and proven skills of inspiring others.

Eager to be a queen
Queen of empathy

Share your though
and she will load you up with a hundreds way of new thinking

share your problem
and she will point out several ways of solution



I have known her for several years.

bonding a relationship with an imagination,
She likes story.
A great author.
J.K's admirer.


Her smiles is warm
sunshine is her match.

She is wise.
no wiser than the old man wearing half-moon glass in Hogwarts.
but she is wise.

Younger and I can not beat the maturity she had in her rainbow personality.

I wish and I do hope, she will always be around.
simply, to cheer me and others.

Bring us to the new stage of happiness.

I thank her.

half spoon of support in a cup of sadness

doubt and confuse

I Greet her nicely with a face that full of hope.

I hope it is really hopeful.

She smiled, and I recognized something sad in her heart.

covered perfectly in beauty and shiny face


Friends around her and laugh with her..
yet,
she is still burdened by indecisive situation.

some people ask her to choose a tough option,
others suggest her to be super-straight..

superwoman is super-straight,
her, is not that straight..

it is a normal feeling, yet she feels something less than that..

Type anything that will relieve her,
walk alone in long road of doubt.

She needs someone to share,
not someone to scold her.

someone to give an input
not someone to put an extra grief.

She had chosen a tough option.
I do believe that she will get through all of this.

and soon will be converted in to a fully grown lady.
And I will be the first one to smile at her.

Korem GKI Muara Karang

It's been years since the first time I came to our church.

Back then, I was just an ordinary child waiting to be seen and watched.
immature and hoping for something new in this world.

The first step I came to this church , then everything was upside down.
Meanwhile outside the church i was just normal kid, but in this church, I mean, people in this church put a faith in me and believe that I was special in some certain way.

In here, I was raised from nothing to something.

From antisocial to loving person.
From childish person into a fully grown man.

I put my faith and believe that this is God's purpose to place me in this fellowship.

I am not saying that this is the best church in the world.

But if there is someone..anyone.. ask me the proper words to describe my church,
I would say,

This is the best thing ever happened to me in my life.