Thursday 13 November 2008

Lucky..

Lucky,
There is a tears in this world.
Tears that will help you to refresh your heart and mind.
Tears that will help you when you need God beside you.
Tears is the symbols of hope in desperation.
You were crying because you need someone.

Lucky,
There will be always Someone that sitting next to you when you cried.
Someone that always be named in your pray.
A pray in the night.. and with tears you were calling His name.
You were begging and begging
waiting for Him to really came down from heaven.
Hold your hands, and hug you.

Lucky,
From the first time you were born, you need only a pray to be connected to Him.
Connected when you need someone.
Connected when the world around you is really out of your control.
Connected when everyone around you has closed the line with you.

It is really Lucky,
to have Jesus in your life.

It is lucky,
to have a desperation
a stressful situation
and a never ending confusion.

Lucky because you will reach Him at last.
Lucky because finally, you will really be connected with Him.



Lucky..

Tuesday 11 November 2008

That zone.

starts with spinning to roving, little bit about cotton.
I get through with all textile-things.
Makes me mad and wanna scream .

Hope that the scream can reach the sky
Telling the Mighty God, that I have enough.

In desperate telling everyone that this is not right.
Then, it reach me.
The answer.

I am screaming again. The scream of happiness.
I rebuild my spirits, motivation, and mood.
Think that this is the right plane. The right track.
Everything seems good when I stepped in to that zone.

however,
For some reason..
I just can not stand it anymore

To be honest
I dont have what so called Pressure-Resistance.

I feel like I dont belong being downliner.
I just...
have my own dream
my own Idea and purpose.

The faith zone
My faith zone.

But somehow, when I reached to step and entering the zone
I feels like evryone turned against my decision.

Somehow... The worst condition of in this world is The condition without a decision.

I was bounded in the misery of pain.
A pain that covered perfectly in the knitted yarn of income.

Hope that someday

one day

I can step in brave to enter my faith zone.

Monday 3 November 2008

Tears in 16 degrees..

A joke.
I Need that.

A smile.
I also need that.

A cheer.
I desperate for that.

A friend to share..
I would give anything for that.


Now I am sitting in the front of magic-monitor.
Rainy, outside, playing the drum of storm.
Harmonize with the raindrops.

It is 16 degrees and I am dizzy with the Influenza airborne attack.

Tears started to fell from eyes to neck.
The world seems bigger.
Standing in the front.
a step ahead , bring you the trap, misery, hatred, and harbinger.

I just couldn't understand.
The quadratic equation,
and the substitution of triple variables seems more simple.

The pressure is hard.
My brain squeezed and I am turning in the circle of dizziness.

No...Nooo! that is not the problem.
I can take complicated things.

I can stand against all of the world.

I can run till the last breath.

I can do anything as far as I live.



What I can not resist is....

No one....
in the meantime...
says ,"I'm on your side."

I am alone in the most destructive situation.
The situation when you can not decide anything.
and the situation when none of your friend understand. .

who's on my side?